Today I am ready to actually start something. I am grasping at straws at how to fill my time. It’s this hard thing where there are things that I can do but they don’t need to be done now. And the lack of pressure is making me unmotivated. Plus, I know it’s a good thing I don’t feel like I have to knock out 12 things today just to be busy. So today looks like filling my time productively with things I love. Things like reading books, going on a slow run, drinking tea. I am proud of myself for realizing that I just don’t want to work and finding things that fill me up instead of scrolling endlessly.
This down time is a little bit hard because I want to be the person that has these passions she pursues and is learning about and is going and growing and becoming more more more. But I know where that puts me. So on this rainy day I am just going to not do that. It feels good in my soul to give myself that permission.