Today I am not okay and that is okay. I don’t need to justify or fake it, it just is. It is partially for sure because I haven’t been giving myself the things I know I need to succeed.
It comes to responsibility, and that’s been something I have been running from. This past week I became a passive recipient of life and life isn’t necessarily on my side or going for the things. I know I need structure, time in the word, time to move, intentional conversation, boundaries, time to unwind. I am my best self when I have had my type of mornings. I can be responsible for that by going to bed at a decent time and celebrating the morning instead of feeling dread. I create a schedule where I am eating 3 meals a day. I have the power of my words to say no specifically to the foods that won’t help me, but also to relationships and conversations. I am in control of what my time with the Lord looks like. He is always there, I just have to say yes.
I have the responsibility to go to others when I need something. I can shamelessly ask for prayer and help and advice and fun. My people can’t help me unless I am honest with where I am. That means not saying good when I am not good. It means being real.
I get to ask God for what I need to! I get to boldly approach his throne and say what’s up and he is not going to judge me or think less of me because of my needs. He rejoices when I come to him. I can trust God to provide for my every need and to be the best listening ear and giver when I go to him.